When I remember your name I remember everything that goes with it
The scruff on your chin
The brightness of your eyes
-Almost manic with a joke you haven’t told me-
I remember the crookedness of your teeth
and the softness of your expression
When you hug me and say the most comforting things
When I remember your name there’s a soundtrack in my head
I am thinking of silly songs you introduced me to
And old old music that we both adored
I am thinking of the Santa Clause day when we talke and laughed
But I got tired and went home early
When I hear your name I think of the way
your hands were always bigger and stronger than mine
How there were no end to things you knew that I was clueless about
How we disagreed and that never made you mean or rude to me
How we met up for lunch
And then dinner
And then sat outside the restaurant until the staff went home
About how you promised me you’d teach me to defend myself
When I hear your name I think of the people you quoted
I think of the dumb jokes I told you
-Which you were either silly or generous enough to laugh at –
And the times that I was worried we might not meet up again
I think of how we met again after those times
I think of the day you woke me early,
So I’d get to say goodbye before you left for a long time
I think today that is the clearest memory I have
I have happy thoughts
Sad thoughts
Angry, good, every thoughts
And I love them all right now
Just hearing your name
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