The dogs are already asleep when you call
Rose and I are the only ones awake in the house
Smiling emojis and a question
“Want us to swing by?”
And it is 1 a.m.
I smile at Rose, and text that I was just about to sleep
but pause, because my sister looks thoughtful
So I feel thoughtful
And I don’t want to sleep
We wait for you on the porch
No bra, no shoes, no plans of any kind
When the car pulls up I wonder if we still get along
And then the two of you tumble out onto the curb
Bright eyes, bright clothes, blue hair in my mind
Your feet have not hit soil before you are
shrieking
Delighted to see us, as we are suddenly
overwhelmed
By how much we have missed you
Isolation had been so complete
So quiet and protected
I had forgotten that you could appear
at 1 a.m.
And turn the world askew
You fumble a kiddy-burger into my hand
And throw your arms around my neck
And I have never been so awakened
To my heart bursting for someone
You take turns telling me why you’re here
And laughing because Blue lost her dad
And she can’t cry anymore
So she has no choice but to laugh
Baby-Belle holds up sparklers for inspection
Even though independence day
Is only just now starting
She threatens to set them off
anywhere and
everywhere
And I laugh because I have never been
Threatened with happiness and sparklers
You say you’re hungry
Because you didn’t want to eat
The burgers that you bought
You will pay, you promise, if we can just
Go get a.m. pancakes
I don’t know how my shoes and mask
Get added to my ensemble and
We are tumbling off into the night
I blame you: Rose and Blue and Baby-Belle
We nearly get lost in the world’s smallest home town
Covid19 at 1 a.m. in nowheresville:
It looks abandoned at the restaurant
A lone figure slips inside through the
Strangely foreboding doors
We tell Baby-Belle she’s bravest
And make her go investigate
She darts out and the comes hurtling back
Her anxiety meds must be strong
And ours weak: she’s happy and laughing a riot
She says “It’s Open!” And we all tumble inside
I am dragging my feet
Half out of anxiety and half
To cherish this strange moment
That we always have with you two
But I had forgotten in the long, long in-between
My isolation has made me forgetful, I’m afraid…
The boy who takes our order hates the mask
He has to wear for regulations’ sake
We pull off ours since there is no one else around
And we can’t drink or eat with them on
Orders and conversation pass
around the table
Blue doesn’t like Pancakes
Rose doesn’t eat meat
I always order the steak tips which are
Sweeter than pancakes
They give rose the wrong order
And Belle gives me a piece of French toast
Prattle fills the air
The poor boy who waits on us is bored
And amused all at once
He has more tattoos and piercings than I ever will
He is older than you two, and
Younger than Rose and me
He brings us water after water
And ties wrappers into bows to please us
I know he will get too small a tip, because
I left my wallet at the house
And Rose lost her card
So Belle will pay for us,
And will only tip him a few dollars
Just under the normal amount
Because it is easier to say ‘keep the change’
I hope I see that boy again, so I
Can give him the huge tip that Rose insists upon
The time flies in the early morning hours
Before we know it
It’s after three
And we are tumbling back out into the humid night
False threats and joke at death’s expense
Fill the air as we
Make our tiered way back home
We are not meant to be so happy and so sad
We murmur exhaustedly to
One another in the lamplight
And hug and stroke each other’s hair
And just like that
The 1 a.m. pancakes are gone
You drive away
And we make our way to bed