Do you see me?
I am another face
blended into the others
No bigger or smaller than they are
No better or worse
No more or less special
Do you see me?
I have done imperfect things
I have hated and cried
I have broken and rebuilt
Do you see me?
I am still who I was
when I was younger
I am already who I will be
When I am older
I am good
and bad
and in between
And the thing which isn’t
Good
or bad
or anything else
Do you see me?
I am gay
And straight
And female
And male
And a mess
I am a little bit boring
And a little fascinating
I whine when I
should keep my mouth shut
And stay silent when I
Should talk to someone
Do you see me?
I believe in God
I believe in science
I believe in beauty and pain
I believe in hope and hopelessness
I believe more than
Almost anyone I know
I believe everyday
But I don’t want to
Believe blindly
The way I used to
Do you see me?
If I am Joan of Arc
On my crusade
Riding through war
And through hellfire
To follow my God
Do you see me?
If I am a stranger
In an even stranger land
A nomad
A wanderer
A wonderer
Lost in my own footprints
Following my own footsteps
Never resting
Never settling
Never sure where I will go
Carried like
A
Leaf
On the
Bitter
Blazing wind…
Do you see me?
If I am a child
Who still wants to
Be loved
Like a child
If I cry at night
And hug my pillow
And whisper lullabies
I wish someone else
Would sing to me
Do you see me?
If I am very fat
Or I am very sick
If I am a ‘cripple’
If I can’t walk
If I cannot think
The way so many people think
If I am broken
Beyond sanity
From love
And gunfire
And the memories
Or if I just ate
Things that made me
Forget
Do you see me?
If I am the faggot
That I’ve heard is so
Sinful
And wrong
And justified
And born this way
And inexcusable
And perfectly fine
And just an inch from
Dying
Do you see me?
Do you see me?
Do you see me?
Do you see me?
Somewhere in this
Beautiful mire
I am one of these people
Who you pass by every day
Who has a story
Who has a purpose
Who has a fire
raging in their heart
And a smile on their face
And a sad song
Playing in their head
Do you see me?
Can you see me?
Will you see me?
What Good Does That Do
If You Will Not See
The Other Faces?
If you will not look
Unless I am Joan
Unless I am a nomad
Unless I am a child
Unless I am unhealthy
Unless I am gay
Unless I am like you
Unless I am different
Unless you love me
Unless you hate me
If you do not see
The other humans
Why do you think
You have seen even one?
Because we all have a story
We all have a purpose
We all have a fire
raging in our heart
And a smile on our face
And a sad song
Playing in our head
Do you see them?
Do you see us?
Do you see me?